Ms. Jazz told me today, that she can almost see
flowers growing in my wake. She told me I was born in the wrong era. She also
told me that when she was in high school (probably the same time as my mom),
that she would beat up people with my similar personality. Apparently, by
definition, she was a Greaser. She says, though, that she really loves my
energy. I personally think she just loves the stories I tell her.
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| Greaser Girl |
I laughed at her joke. I can do that now, because the
trauma of junior high is finally healing. I did; however, tell her that girls
like her still do beat up girls like me. I had a tough time and that wasn't
something that went away when I graduated middle school.
I'm afraid to start auditioning. I dragged my feet
with the pictures, then dragged my feet again at getting them looked at by a
second person. I'm still dragging my feet to get them sent off for copies. Now
I'm dragging my feet to book an audition. I told Emory this. Emory's advice
"Then I guess you're going to have to face your fear." Damn. I don't
want to.
So, seconds before I started writing this blog... I
actually requested a time on Saturday for an audition. I'm nervous. Emory will
have to coach me on how to cold read. I feel a little sick. Shouldn't I be
excited? I use to love this when I was in my twenties.
P.S. My vegan shirts came in and they are AWESOME!!! Emory loves the atheist
shirts I ordered him. I didn't show him the online options I found, so he had a
pretty nice surprise when he opened the packages. I love his happy, surprised
face.
Writing Update
HKT: Finally finished! I took the 3 day weekend and
got the final chapters done. It feels really good to say that. It also feels
good getting all the feedback on the story. The comments and kudos from readers
makes me smile. I love when people can hop into my world.
OS: I'm working on the third chapter. I didn't think I
would go back and start editing this soon, but yesterday I did just that with
the first page. I like this rewrite. I want to make each chapter almost a
standalone, but I think I missed the mark with chapter two.
CSAN: Also working on the third chapter for this
story.