Friday, June 23, 2017

Litha in Arizona and Heat Warnings!

Arizona citizens have finally gotten the warning that the heat advisory is crucially dangerous. Warnings state that we should stay indoors after 10 am. in the morning. It's weird, because 111 degrees and 116 isn't even the hottest Arizona has gotten, BUT you feel it. Man you feel it!

Emory always asks, "Didn't you have the air conditioning on in the car? Why are you so sweaty?"

The seat belt maybe? Or the way the heat just radiates through the windows making you drip sweat despite the vents trying to keep you cool. I have the knob all the way up, which I usually can't stand because I'd rather be warm than cold (it might be a muscle/joint weakness issue that makes the cold so uncomfortable). Either way, IT'S SUMMER IN ARIZONA!!!

But today, around 5:00 in the evening, it didn't feel so bad. Another co-worker said it was because we were so cold. I went out earlier today at like 10-ish am and I couldn't breathe it was so hot. I had to go back inside, but those five minutes spent outside left me thirsty as all get-out!!

Painted Bowling Pin from Goodwill for $2.00.

Same Night, Same Fortune!!
 So in other news!!! I was going to go hiking for Litha, but Emory was totally against that since we'd be hiking up on the mountain trails and I can sort of see that we could be pushing our luck. It gets so hot so fast, even though I planned to do this in the semi-dark and try to be at the top of the mountain for sunrise. But in the end, it's been uncomfortable out here. There is no shade out there either. We don't have the same type of trees and most of the places I've hiked doesn't have trees at all. It's rock, cactus and itty-bitty plant life.

Sunday, June 04, 2017

Philip the Knocking Ghost

I was invited with a small group of friends, about six of us, to sit at a seance. I use to try doing seances with my friends when we were in junior high, so the concept isn't new. I had a pretty decent idea on the rules of a seance; hold hands, "repeat after me", don't break the circle, don't let go of anyone's hands.

My friend sat in the circle announcing that we would be calling on Philip the Ghost. I immediately laughed, "You're not talking about the Philip experiment from the 1970's are you?" It's a cool story and all, but Philip isn't real. The experiment results were interesting though.

My friend confirmed that it was. That she wanted to see the energy humans could create. I'm mentally out now, but curiosity gets the better of me. There were six of us after all, though the experiment took months before there were results. I just didn't think we'd be able to bring this energy out.

It was set up with white candles, dark cherry incense and no protective spell; the host wasn't really a practitioner. I wasn't too concerned. After all, this was only an experiment on the human mind. What would we be actually calling on? Philip is a made up persona made by Canadian parapsychologists to focus on human mental energy; a poltergeist made from combined brain waves or wherever humans get that strange power.

Phew! Me scared.... nope. Not on this one.

And as they turned off the lights, leaving only the fire dancing on the candle wicks, something inside me twisted in my gut and up my spine. Yeah, I guess I'm scared that something will touch me. I can imagine ghostly fingers pressing through my flesh and gripping my spine.

"Philip, are you there?"

"Are you there Philip?"

"Philip, are you there? Knock on the table."

I'm mentally singing my pagan chants... because something knocked. It wasn't on the table. It was on the wall right over my head.

Thursday, June 01, 2017

Expensive Medicines, Bouncy Balls and 80's to 90's Horror Movie Favs

I’m not on my ADD medicines. It cost $$$ more than what I’m able to make when added to my other medicines, so I have to find another way to keep totally on point. 

There is this new toy made for students with ADD, but nothing about the advertisements make me think it’d be the same as throwing a tiny bouncy ball a few times until my attention is back (which is what the counselor suggested I do). 

So long story short, I usually listen to all the political channels I miss throughout the day, on Youtube, and that usually keeps my head straight at work, BUT Youtube eats up the data on my phone, so I got this great idea that I’ll just download some of my favorite movies to the media player, so at least the noise will be; comforting, familiar capable of drawing my focus and hopefully keep me from going bonkers with my diverse anxiety triggers.

So, first movie I downloaded (2 hr process by-the-way) was Spirited Away.  I’ve seen this a million times. Not distracting at all… except I do this thing when things get too sentimental too fast. I totally break down. So yes, I’m like bawling and nodding my head (wearing headphones so no one even knows what’s going on right now) and just thinking 

WHY!!! WHY did you forget you get this way with this movie!!! 

So, I’m going to try and make a better decision on the next downloaded movie. 

I’m so hankering for something from my past. My girlfriend and I went to the theater no less than 9 times to see Billy Zane in Demon Knight, so I really think I might download that movie to my phone next. 

Demon Knight kicked started my obsession with Billy Zane. Our favorite line was “Humans aren’t worth the skin they’re printed on.” We loved that movie so much.The only thing I think I couldn't really sit through was Titanic and mostly because it was a love story and I'm not the type of person to sit through a romance. 

Absolutely feel like pulling teeth if I have to watch romance comedies, Hallmarks, and anything focusing on Valentine's Day. I do like Last Holiday, which Emory claims is a romance... Actually, he might be right.

We also loved Fright Night, which we watched so much that the color faded out of my VHS tape. One day we stuck it in to watch and it looked like a black and white film that turned so white you couldn’t really tell what was going on, but the sound still worked great. So because of all this, I can’t really tell what I have to watch first. 

I have my urgent anxiety reducing choices: Earth Girls are Easy and Love at First Bite. 

I have my "bored as hell need to stay out of trouble" choices: Gone in 60 Seconds, Italian Job, Ocean's 11. Side Note: Emory was talking about one of my top movie choices, and I asked him which one and he told me to guess. Within two guesses, I said Italian Job, and I was right. Dang! So was he! He really knows me. 

I have my "crap, is this my reality" choices: Howl's Moving Castle, Rick and Morty seasons, Spirited Away, Venture Brothers.

Okay, this list could continue!